I didn’t really have feelings at all.
I was upset at myself. Upset at myself because I hadn’t reached out to him sooner. I’ve been doing research on where he lives, and trying to think of what I could write to him so he knows on how awesome the family that he chose to ignore is.
You see, long story short, my mom hadn’t heard from him in 24 years (yep, that’s as long as I’ve been alive). I found this appalling because let’s face it, my mom is awesome and who wouldn’t want her in their life? I wanted to point out how well she has done and how great her kids are (because we’re all pretty great).