August 7th. I love it.

This was my last full meek with Bud for who knows how long, so we made sure to make it great!

First up this week, seeing friends. I love it. On Friday, Bud and I went to Jose and Diana’s for dinner. Homemade lasagna. O. M. Goodness. I asked her to make that from the list of options she gave me so Bud could have his favorite food made right. Our attempts at making lasagna have all be relative failures. After dinner we watched “Yours, Mine, and Ours” which is one of my favorite movies from my childhood. Speaking of childhood, Diana and Jose are having another baby! I’m so happy for them!

I love it.

Next up, “Jason Bourne.” I love it. This week’s movie might be one of my favorites from this summer. We’ve spent the last week or so watching all of the Bourne movies (even Legacy) so we would know the ins and outs of the movies. As usual, there’s not a lot of talking, but there’s a lot of running and hiding. It also takes place in Vegas some, which is cool now that I know where they are on the Strip because I’ve been there!

I love it.

Finally, Sunday Fundays. I love it. Today was a typical Sunday for us. We slept in late, got breakfast at Caffe Latte Da (our favorite), spent the day at the zoo, and got ice cream and snowballs on the way home. Plans for tonight? Pizza Hut and the Olympics. Pretty perfect day if you ask me.

I love it. It’s great. Everything’s great.

I love it.

 

The Sunshine Blogger Award!

I was nominated  by my wonderful cousin, Kristian

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The rules are as follows…

1. Thank the person that nominated you
2. Answer the 11 questions from your nominator
3. Nominate bloggers.
4. Give them 11 questions to answer.

Here are the questions I was asked:

  1. What risk would you take if you knew you would not fail?
    • I would quit my job and write full time.
  2. If you could have witnessed any event, what would it be and why?
    • Women playing baseball. I would have loved to be a part of that.
  3. Do you have any hidden talents?
    • I have a really good memory, thanks to my OCD/Asperger’s.
  4. What are the top 5 things you cherish in life?
    • My family, my cats, my friends, baseball, and books.
  5. What is your favorite movie and why?
    • I can never get tired of watching “Enchanted”, but I’m also a huge fan of the X-Men movie.
  6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
    • I hate it when people don’t follow the rules. Drives me crazy.
  7. Are there any changes you would like to make/add to your blog?
    • I wish I had more ideas for what to write about.
  8. Why did you start blogging?
    • I had a dream about my grandpa that I wanted to share. The rest is history.
  9. What would you chose for your last meal?
    • My mom’s cheesy potatoes and peanut butter and jelly.
  10. What is your favorite kind of sandwich?
    • Peanut butter and jelly.
  11. What songs do you never get tired of hearing?
    • John Mayer’s “Bigger Than My Body” is my jam.

 

My nominations are:

  1. Caitlyn’s Blog
  2. Rivers and Roads
  3. Brittany’s blog

The Questions I want to ask are:

  1. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?
  2. What’s your dream job?
  3. What’s your favorite sport?
  4. What’s been your biggest adventure?
  5. What’s your biggest fear?
  6. A perfect day to you means what?
  7. What is the last book you read?
  8. What was the last song you listened to?
  9. Do you wish you could change your life in any way?
  10. What’s the most important thing you own?
  11. What superpower do you wish you had?

I really enjoyed this, and I look forward to getting to know my nominations better! It’s so hard to chose, you are all worthy of this award!

 

Day 19: A Difficult Time in My Life

Overall, I’ve had a pretty awesome life. I’ve traveled a lot, met some amazing people, lived the dream, and found somebody I love.

But it wasn’t always awesome.

When I first moved away from home in 2011, I had a really hard time. I was 3000 miles away from my family, really stressed out, a nervous nelly, and afraid of what was coming.

A little background – I’ve been obsessive compulsive basically my whole life. Since 1st grade, I’ve been an absolute neat freak and worry wart. I always had to have everything clean and organized, vacuuming my room more often than I should have. I would also stay up late at night crying to my stuffed animals about how I thought the house was going to burn down. Obviously, that wasn’t going to happen and it was just me overthinking everything. This kind of thing has always been a struggle for me.

Fast forward to age 21 and living alone in a strange city for the first time and it’s like my OCD went into hyperdrive. I started worrying constantly about nothing and thanks to the old man that lived next door to me and accidentally tried to key into my apartment (an honest mistake, I know) my compulsive locking got out of control. I would barricade my door at night with my dining room chair, lock the door almost 200 times before I was satisfied, and would often leave for work but then have to drive right back home to make sure I locked the door behind me.

Of course, after my time in Arizona, I was led to New Orleans. My issues didn’t subside at all, and probably got worse. I would stay up almost all night worrying about the future and coloring (it helped me calm down). At that point, I decided it was time for me to come home and work things out.

I drove back home and spent 4 months going to therapy, hanging out with my parents, and working on myself. It was a really hard decision because I didn’t want to be a useless lump, but I really needed a break. By this time, my anxiety was out of control, my sleeping pattern was seriously messed up, and I was having at least 2 panic attacks a day.

My parents were especially helpful during this hard time. They understood what was going on, did their best to help me out, and supported me. I know it was hard for them too, seeing me so unsteady. I found out later that my mom was also going to see a therapist in an attempt to help me even more. I don’t think she realized how much I appreciated all of her assistance; she would distract me when I was anxious, come lay in bed with me when she would come home from work if I were hiding, and bringing me Spidey when I needed it. My dad did a lot too, making sure that I wasn’t sitting in the house all the time and getting me out in the world so I would stop being afraid of everything.

After those 4 months at home, although I may not have been totally ready yet, I felt comfortable enough to move back to New Orleans after I took a job at Tulane. While I still struggle with anxiety and OCD, I have improved a lot (much thanks to my boyfriend, Bud).

I think I had to go through that difficult time to realize that I am stronger than I thought.

Day 18: My collections

Over the years, I’ve collected a lot of things. I used to collect pennants and pins from every ballpark I visited. All of the pennants are still hanging in my room back home (and also in my brother’s room as we ran out of room in the walls).

Today, I still collect pins from ballparks I visit and Bud and I also collect baseballs. Our goal is to visit every ballpark together. We have a map of the stadiums and we buy pins and put them in the city where they belong as we get them.

I also collect smushed pennies. You know, you put 51 cents into the machine and you get a cool penny that had a design in it from wherever you’re visiting. I’ve already filled up 1 penny book and just started on my second one. These are souvenirs that my parents and friends get for me when they travel so I have them from a ton of different places. So, if you want to send me smushed pennies from where you visit, go ahead!

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Day 17: The Meaning Behind My Blog’s Name

This will all make prefect sense someday.

That’s what I decided to name my blog over 6 years ago. It took me a really long time to come up with something that I loved and I knew I didn’t want my blog to just be “Carolyn’s Blog.” Initially, I had no idea what I was going to write about. I thought I could make it a journal because I really do have a pretty interesting life (and you must think so too if you’re reading this.

The more I wrote, the more I realized how crazy my life was. Growing up around baseball, traveling, meeting new people, and sometimes just being stumped about what was going on.

One day, while I was binge watching John Mayer videos on YouTube, as one does with their free time in college, I can across a video of John’s daily life. And what was it called?

This will all make perfect sense someday.

I love this title because it’s so true. Life may be really confusing, but someday, you’ll figure out what all of the nonsense was for.

Ta-dah!

I had a blog name and I’ve kept it.

Here’s the video that inspired the name.